When Healing Is SLOW

By now, may of you know that I am 5 days post-op for gallbladder surgery.  It was not my idea of a good time, but seeing as I had a marble sized stone removed along with my gallbladder, it needed to be done.  Yes, I tried all the home remedies to avoid it...they didn't work, unfortunately.

So I went in Friday morning for surgery and got to come home mid-afternoon.  They said I did great.  What do they know??!

• I expected I would have a heart attack before the surgery because I was so scared.  I did not, thankfully.

•  I expected that I would be able to avoid the severe nausea that anesthesia and pain killers gives me.  I did not. 

• I expected to have my appetite back immediately.  I do not.

• I expected to be up and dressed and ready to go.  Nope, not that either.

See how this is going?

Let me say, I AM thankful for a successful surgery and the wonderful doctors and nurses who took care of me and pretended that I was NOT the biggest baby they had seen all week.  I am thankful that I am not in severe pain and was able to ditch the pain meds two days into healing.  I am thankful for friends who have sent food, cards, flowers, and sweet messages, and I am super thankful for my sweet family that has taken on running the household.

BUT...

I am frustrated.  I anticipated I would be sore, but I did not think it would feel like someone has tried to stir fry my insides. I did not think that no food would sound good to me.  I did not expect that taking a deep breath would send a pain straight through my rib cage.  I did not expect all I would feel like doing was sleeping.  I did not think going up or down the stairs would wear me out for the day and I certainly did not think I would not care whether I was showered or dressed.  Frankly, both take too much energy.

So, am I healing?  Let's hope so.  Everyone says I am.
Would I like a do over? Yes!  But I would have to start from day 1 again and quite frankly, no thank you!
Do I have a greater respect for people who have surgery of any kind?  YES!

It does not matter what surgery you are having done, cutting into a body is not natural and it does take a toll on your body.  Listening to others and their experiences is good in some ways, but expecting that your story will look the same is not reasonable.  I am pretty sure that is where I went wrong.

Expectations.  They will get you every time!
So will surgery!

Here's to next week looking better!

Blessings,